what I want... hmm..

Hello... I hope this post finds you all well. I should be studying but i'm tired of it. This test is going to come and it is going to go and for some odd reason I feel like if I do horrible on it, it is going to be the end of the world.. not only that but I think that this exam may have a lot to do with my severe headache (i don't want to admit it was something else cause that means i'm doing too much and i'm not quite to admitting that just yet...) and my upset stomach all last night....geez.. I'd like to know what i'm going to do when i am faced with my national certification exam in a 1 1/2 or 2 years.. eeekkk.. I don't remember having such horrible test anxiety before but then again i haven't put this much pressure on myself to do well in school since..high school. Anyway, lets talk about important stuff.

I'm so excited to get out of here this weekend! yeah to Nashville.. I leave Thursday a.m. and it can't come fast enough.... Thats another thing I want - I want Thursday to come faster! I'd post more about it now but i'm going to save it for when I get back and have much more time..

I also want to go for a run and for it to not hurt.. oppss, i mean it doesn't hurt, not a bit. Okay, so most of the time it doesn't hurt, but today it did. My ankle and my knee... weird. I think it is because my second run of the day yesterday was at a much faster pace than normal. I think i did oh about 7:45 min. miles.. yeh i felt it a little this morning BUT i limited it to 20 min. I didn't know i was running that fast till I clocked it later.... Fast, scary how that seems fast now...blah, i'm getting old. So that is my want number two- to run fast and it to feel great. I want to kick my own booty...

Onto want number 3- i (sit down for this one) want school to be over. I want to start my own business and I want my license as a certified psychotherapist.. wow, I think that was about three wants right there. Yepper folks, I suddenly know what I want to do with my life for sure! Great thing about it is that can go almost anywhere with me! Or well... i can go anywhere with it...

Last want of the day- i want to go jog the hog back and run the stairs at red rocks.. I want to join a climbing gym and i want to take boxing lessons, but i don't want to hit anything but a bag, no people. I'm a peaceful person! ha...

Okay i'm done being selfish for now! its been a long time coming.. I am off to meet with the TA whom i was supposed to meet two weeks ago and she never showed and then to take my exam.. YIKES.. HELP... By the way.. before i finish I do have one complaint- inconsiderate people really really bug me!

i will post pictures of home and nashville upon my return.
have a wonderful weekend.. i'm out for now :)
oh and I almost forgot- my little boy i work with on Mondays said to me yesterday "Heather I misseded you last week" because I took friday off.. It was sooooo sweet that I didn't even correct the past tense!

GOING HOME :)

Going Home!!!!!!!!! It is funny when I have so much to do I just can't seem to focus.
I haven't been able to focus on anything for about a week now. I am soo ecstatic to head home. It is also very funny how I swore I wasn't blogging for the rest of the month and I think i've posted more this month than any other. Okay, maybe not quite but... i've posted a lot.

So home is going to be very busy. I'm home Thursday through Sunday this week and I think my schedule is just as packed as it is when I'm here in CO. Crazy how that goes sometimes.
My sis and I are making dinner for the family on Thursday evening. Not just ma mere and ma pere but also for my grandparents and my grandma and Jason's family... I'm sure the babies will start crying and I'll end up cooking alone. which is a very scary thought cause let me tell you... i really can't cook.. Thursday night I'm headed off to my grandma's house to stay with her.. Whoa, my own queen size bed.. real mattresses. I'm going to feel like a queen! haha Not to mention I get to hang with two of the cutest babies in the WORLD.. oh i'm gonna be the aunt that spoils them rotten...
Friday it is off to see my one and only hair dresser.. Well at least the one that i've seen since i could walk. I love her and miss hearing all her funny stories. I'm not sure what I should do. I'm def. dying my hair-i'm feeling a need for a change. I'll go darker and red like i do once a year or so.. maybe she'll talk me into something different but... i'm not going lighter! I'm debating on leaving it long or cutting it.. so if any of yas have any cute idears send them my way! Friday off to hang with Bri and his gf. Funny, i used to stay with his girlfriend when her parent's were out of town.. i wouldn't say babysit cause she was old enough to do that but she wasn't old enough to drive so i would take the to school, pick them up, yada yada. ya know the mom thing.. We'll just hang and watch movies. Last I heard he is hoping to be out of the hospital bed and walking by late july. Man, sure puts my injury in perspective. Makes me feel bad about all that complaining I did. He is a tough cookie though, he'll make it through.
then comes Saturday!!!! hooorraaaayyyy--i've been longing to see my bestest FOREVER and i've been longing for a wine tour.. Can you believe it, it has been two years since our last one.. no excuse for that. I think we are going to head around Seneca lake--there are a few more wineries to hit. I think we are all piling it up in the K&L van, no limo this time.. I hope we all fit.. Speaking of I need to call Kel. I think the crew is going to consist of myself, em, kel, hb, ellie, Adge (she is coming in from OHIO..man do i feel special.. such a great friend:), kendra, kris, scutter, maybe my sis (she needs to get out) and kel's man greg. I'm not sure if hb's boy or el's boy will be going us or not but they sure are welcome to come.. the more the merrier. I don't really care what wineries we hit I just want to go to the champagne house and hazelit!!! RED CAT RED CAT! After the tour, I'm prolly gonna jump in the car with Heath and head to the Switz.. oh good times there.. it is the polar bear swim and lots of my insane friends will be jumping in the lake at in the 20-30 degree weather outside. I'd love to say those idiots will at least wear wetsuits but nope.. just a bunch of small town boys and some cottagers running around in boxers and chics in bathing suits jumping in a** cold freezing water. You'll see me fully clothed..
Saturday i'll be staying with the grandparents and meeting up with them for a late dinner. Sunday morning back to the parent's house for bfast and to say goodbyes.. *tear*.. I love my family with all my heart. I love my hometown but it isn't for me right now. I'm not sure if it will ever be for me again but my wonderful fun friends will def. keep me going back to visit.
Upon my return to Denver I'll be working full time for three days and going to class then I'll be flying out once again for Nashville.. yippeee and this trip has me just excited as the one home! I'll save that post for a later time though--since this one is getting a bit long and I still have a fasfa form staring me down and .... an empty bag waiting to be packed and Carmen is calling.. yeah Carmen.. making my famous salad haha.. its not famous just seems to have a reputation i guess.. I get to meet Carmen's boy finally! :) she just informed me he was going to be there. I've heard so much about him.. i'm excited. whoah... overload.. working all day tomorrow.. going straight to carm's after work around 7er and then working till 8pm tuesday (might have to change the schedule around a bit so i can catch the girls lax game) then full day thursday that will end will an 11:50pm flight out of denver.. eeeeeekkkksssssss! i'm excited.. I love traveling!! :) okay must get stuff done.
*the pic above is from one of my last nights in Canandaigua. summer 2004*

My training starts..

so... i am suppose to start training monday. I am excited. I'm running a short road race the end of april and another in may. Hoping, to be ready for a half marathon by june/july and then a full one by october... soo exciting :)
I ran a whole 2 1/2 miles today.. Whoa.. haha not really but it is a start.. I felt more tired from the run today than I did the 7k last weekend.. crazy how that goes sometimes. Anyway, i'm excited to be out an about again. soon my stress will decrease and my sleeping will increase.. my body isn't getting out of this--i am forcing it back into a routine.
today was my last day of caffeine.. i'm done with it. I used the last $3.00 on my starbuck's card. I didn't drink caffeinated beverages for over a year.. i don't know why in the last year i've decided I need them!
I think that is it. I don't have much to report this weekend has been a low one.. Which is great! it is soo nice to just chill. I might go hiking tomorrow, we'll see what the weather is like!
okay off to pack for NY ! lata gatas!

you are all great

i just want to say my bday is over and I have the most wonderful people in my life. Thank you to everyone for the voicemails, emails, cards, text messages, everything. Ya all know I don't ask for much and I was sooo excited to receive all of it. I'm gonna be mushy for a min. but you all mean so very much to me! muahhhhhh ! :)
smiles
and yep this will be the last time I post this month.. sorry.. i've got to get stuff done.
sorry the pictures below don't always show up (if ever) they are good, i'm bummed.

"I need this old train to break down....Oh please just let me please breakdown. I need this old train to break down... but I can't stop now... can't stop nothing if you've got no control of the thoughts in your mind. you don't know nothin but you don't need to know... ya keep on rollin ... i need this old train to break down.." -jack johnson

Yes... I did take the pitcher of water to the race with us in Marg's car...... i couldn't race until i finished the entire thing... (above) on our way out of the rio last night Meesh thought she would pull her coat out from under Amy-ya know the table cloth trick.. the stool moved Amy fell on the floor and Meesh dropped to the floor laughing. They were blocking the entire walkaway.. I was having a conversation with Amy when it happened it may have been the best face of the night. (left) I think might be the face everyone claims I make but I never know I do.... "Seriously? Are you kidding me?"

things that make me happy..
running running and more running
an awesome person
my kiddos
great nights out and great friends
my job
the place where i live
my family
snow
warm weather
camping
climbing
road trips
sporadic trips
visiting home
wonderful conversations on the phone
smiling
the hammock
hot chocolate
daisies
lilies
the lake
water in general
hiking
travelling
being me
laughing till my stomach hurts
babysitting some of my fav. kiddos
sunsets
sunrises
waterfalls
nature
horses
dogs
music
brisk fresh air
sunshine
jogging in the rain


I am in a great mood. I have great friends and am very thankful for them. I have a great life, I am happy.
Last night we went out and I consumed a bit more than I would have liked but I wasn't out of control. I got up this morning and ran my first 7k... i'm not 100% of our time, frankly that doesn't matter i was just happy to run. It put me in such a great mood, not to mention got the toxins out of my body. It was great to just jog.... i need to work on getting my time up over the next few weeks but i'm sure it will come. two days ago i was wondering if i would ever feel comfortable running again but i think that has passed...

I AM PATHETIC

PISCES This week's scenario is highlighted by your ability to take on more responsibilities in your life. Opportunities to expand your horizons and your income will arrive on the scene this week from nowhere. Someone who had taught you lessons in the past will now help you to show your worth. Get out there and prove yourself to the real world. Use your past experiences to build your confidence and overcome any obstacle put in your way. A good relationship will provide you with a solid anchor, as your success also depends on your loved ones. Communication will help you to be more objective in your thinking. Someone with a heart of gold will smile on your efforts and help make things happen in a big way. Think things through before announcing your grand plans. Others can help you to tune the finer details later but, you can only rely on yourself to get the job done right.

interesting horoscope... I hope its right...

my running efforts are really bumming me out.. For all of those who know me well... I'm kind of a competitive person when it comes to certain things and others I'm not. Well... When it comes to running every once in a while I can be and...When I can't run I seem to be even more competitive. I got the on the treadmill tonight at the gym.. I picked one far away from everyone else in the corner.. That way I figured it would force myself to only walk. But no, first some guys starts walking in the direction..Sure enough he jumps on the treadmill next to me.. UGH after about five minutes of hearing his feet pounding the treadmill I glance over at his screen--he is only going a speed of 7.. (not that that is bad) but I think to myself that used to be my warm up speed.. Maybe I can just do 7.5 for about 5 min. Or so. so I crank mine up.. About 30 seconds in my ankle hates me and I mean hates me...About 2 min. In my foot starts screaming but the guy next to me isn't letting up.. I'm like I can't be shown up--"foot you have to come through for me" Then.....If matters weren't bad enough some chick prolly in her 30s jumps on the treadmill on the other side of me.. I think to myself- she better be walking then I can focus my attention on walking faster than her.. nope, sure enough she runs.. and all that is going through my head is I should have picked the treadmill in the corner and turned it so it faced the wall. Not to mention I didn't have my mp3 player witih me... so about 6 min. in I swallow a little bit of pride (only because I feel my ankle starting to give way again) and bump the treadmill down to a speed that is not worth mentioning... (I was still jogging at least).... At this point I realize my asthma is horrible.. whenever my asthma gets bad I just focus on not wheezing so no-one else will know it is an issue.. So I'm trying to breath real deep and really really slow but I'm overly frustrated.. at minute 10 I say the hell with it and go back to walking but.....of course I crank the treadmill up to like an incline of 9 or so... at minute 15 I'm starting to feel real discouraged on the treadmill and I'm hating one stupid night of drinking back in august... so I switch to the bike, then the elliptical and then... right out the door. However, I still did get about a 45 min. workout in...

I'm not mad, I'm not unhappy just frustrated.. why is something I love so much sooooo difficult right now?? blah... I guess I knew it would be like this for a while but I'm just so close to the end that it is really hard to sit still and what not... plus, I'm a little stubborn sometimes and so... yeh competitive and stubborn go hand in hand...

next week I start my lifting program. That should get better.. i've just NEVER EVER been this out of shape and I think it is worse out here because of the altitude.. Gosh thinking back i've never been in such good shape and such bad shape all in one year ever! i'll get over it.. it will pass.. I just needed to post and vent... so just pouted to all of yas! yes, this is as bad as my pouting gets... I don't make any of those stupid baby faces or talk in some stupid little voice so your all safe if I call anytime soon...

on another note.. the NY license is found.. the CO one is still gone.. For those of you that do not know I lost two different credit cards and two different licenses all in a months time... I found one license and one card today.....after..... I cancelled it.. haha I'm sure that was were I put it, I just didn't remember doing it and... why I would put them where they were and think I would remember it, is beyond me... see Liss- I sound like you..

Happy St. Patty's day everyone :)
I'm not Irish but green is my favorite color so... I think that's why I like the holiday!

toodddalooooos

so i lie..

bryn's ring!
i got an extra hour this morning.. i'm not 100% how but i made it work and i'm trying to figure out my summer class schedule.. lets chat about frustrating. oddly enough though i'm still in a great mood.
I was suppose to stay down here in denver this weekend but I am debating that.? what to do what to do.... it all depends on whether or not I find my ID or get a new one I guess.
i'm trying to blog and do my class schedule for next semester all at the same time.. I used to be great at multi-tasking, what happened? eekkk....
i'm headed to vail the following weekend!! Mindy and I are going snow shoeing !!!!!!!! :) Anyone is welcome to join!
okay so i'm blogging boring stuff.... and not getting what i need to done. i have about 30 min. to finish this schedule, drink my protien shake and dry my hair then its out the door till about 9er tonight.
have a good one!
cheers

hope those pics hold you back for a while.. my eyes are burning and are heavy i'm going to sleep. *goodnight*


Meesh and I
Amy's Birthday at Public House
in philly (lax)

Oh another....

so...because i should be doing other stuff (*ahem- assessment report or more importantly sleeping) I decided to waste some more time and blog.... Actually-this month is crazzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyy busy... so i figured that i'd post again tonight since i was already procrastinating. Plus, I have some good pictures to put up.. haha I finally copied all the pictures i've been neglecting to a disc just so i could post them for you guys... don't be alarmed or surprised if this is the only post you see for this month.. I'm gonna be up to my chin in stuff.....

we'll start with today:
was supposed to be an easy chill day and i ended up working about 8-9 hours.. oh well no biggy.. i can't complain when the pay checks start rolling in.. I got to the gym tonight. I met Amy there and she kept my butt going on the bike (cause the elliptical killed the foot sat.) for about 45 min or so. my bum is sore.. you'd think with all the cushion of my ghetto booty that wouldn't happen but... it did.. haha it was soo great to workout though.
past weekend: the pic above may do it some justice..haha -i prolly will get in trouble for that pic.. :) Anyway- it was one of the best weekends i've had in forever. I don't even know where to start. Thursday Bryn, her fiance (yep you read it right) came in from Omaha and Daniel from Nashville. started thursday night w/ dinner at vesta dipping grill *highly recommended* then moved to three dogs and then back to my apartment. Friday they headed to the mountains i worked but... my day was actually wonderful! Mammoth game friday night.. saturday- up to vail.. brynny got engaged CONGRATS.. (i failed to mention this in my earlier post in fear that it might be read before she got a chance to tell everyone she wanted to)...We visited Mindy *miss her* and last night we just chilled with a movie..
i think i still can still smell burnt socks..haha (someone...tried to warm their socks in our microwave and burnt a hole in them) it was funny! :)

prior:
The other pic is from last Saturday morning when i got locked in our bathroom for about an hour and 15-30min.. so fun. but i promised i'd post the pic of me crawling out .......hehe

future:
this week is going to be pretty crazy with school work. time to get back into school mode. I also will be staying in denver for at least a year.. Cause i'm staying at UCD, no transferring anymore.. I didn't get in but wasn't very surprised considering i didn't put much effort into the application or the essay.. Saturday we are all meeting up at the rio for margs and food!! mmmmm
The following weekend I head to Vail with Carm to visit Mindy- we are throwing our own bday celebration up there and i'm hoping to get some snow shoeing in, if i can get up there in time after work on Sat.
and then the following wednesday is spring break at UCD and i'm headed back to NY to see the family.
Before I know it, it will be april and i will begin training.. so exciting.
i need a trip for easter???? we were thinking steamboat but i still think it may be chilly up there at night to camp...

the other pics are from matt's visit and then just random stuff... enjoy! you can get to more pics on my yahoo site.. check out the 2006 album--i'm sure they are worth looking at.. haha

This past weekend.

:)


* I will post pictures soon*
Sometimes words aren't necessary...
this is one of those times. ;)
I'm sure I'll blog stories at some point but
right now I just wanna smile.


another note:
readers please keep a couple of my
good friends from home in your prayers:

one is in the hospital with a shattered hip,
broken pelvis, and shattered femur bone.

another has a mother in the hospital
in pulmonary ICU.

thanks i appreciate it.

now time to leave regis and go work with
the best kiddo in the entire world :)

*two weeks and 2 days and i'll be boarding
a plane and heading to NY* woohooo