I am an AUNT!!! :) A real one this time :)

Hi Guys... it is sat. night and it is late. I can't sleep.. i stayed in because i was exhausted and wanted to catch up on rest and here it is 1am and i'm still wide awake..
anyway, this picture is of my two adorable nephews and all i have to say is that i want to go home sooooooooooooooooo bad!! I just want to be with my family.. Jaxson and Spencer were born friday night I think around 9:45pm (east coast time).. I got word about 8pm (mountain time)!!! I was so excited! three more weeks and counting and i'll be back in NY... I wish I could go now... maybe i will..hmmm??

funny story.. this morning i got locked in our bathroom for over an hour.. the only way out, after taking the door knob apart with my finger nail file (see that stuff does come in useful sometimes), was to break the frosted plastic window... i tried for an hour to get out other ways.. what makes the story even better is that.. our landlord doesn't seem to be around this weekend and... I don't have his number- so, Karie and I are still crawling in and out of this hole to use the bathroom--the door i'm afraid is permanently jammed....... i'm cracking up now just thinking about it. We have a picture of me coming out of the bathroom--i will post it soon you ya'll can get a good laugh too..

Daniel, Bryn, and Kevin.... I am praying and hoping it will be all fixed by the time you come out... yikes! haha..

Laxers that may see this site-- I'll be at the game tomorrow...good luck play your best and play your hearts out.. i have complete confidence in you, you'll do great! keep your heads up!

i am a free woman!!!!!!!!

i got my boot off today.. i can work out again.. i can start running, ease into it, i believe was the phrase in a week!! i am sooo happy... good lord now i can finally say goodbye to the love handles that have accumulated and.... don't have to rely on horrible cups of coffee in the morning. i can crawl out of bed and jog around the block to wake me up!!! yipppeeee..
my week of hell is coming to an end. it will end tomorrow night at 5pm ish...after class. my grades are slipping.. it sucks.. i've got to get back on the boat and get my shit done.. life sometimes..
now i must run.. going to spend time with one of my favorite little kiddos... hahah and they call it work!

finally a good horoscope.. the last four months have been scary ones!
haha
PISCES This week's scenario is highlighted by an upsurge of your positive energy flow. Recently you have felt as if something was holding you back, this week, everything will click. Your good mood will be highly contagious, others will respond. You'll be everywhere at once, moving so quickly, that people might miss you, if they blink. It's important for you to have your personal touch on everything. If you immerse yourself, your senses will take you for the ride of a lifetime. You still have a long way to go. Enjoy the trip as you move ahead, touching, tasting and experiencing everything from a new perspective. Try to include as many other people as possible in your plans. They'll appreciate the security you offer in organizing projects. Use the resources you have available to you & you'll find new ways to complete your tasks.

neglection!

i have 75 unopened emails in one inbox (no junk it is a secret email)... I have 65 unopened emails in my school email account and 2 in my hotmail account... you sure can see where my priorities are at the moment.. what a week this has been--might just be one of the busiest of the semester..
thats okay next weekend should be a good time...... just hold on till then...
my sister is being induced friday :) yeah! i'm gonna be a real aunt...although, i already considered myself an aunt..
okay i have a paper to finish and a test to study for for tomorrow... blah.. and i have to work all day tomorrow too... YIKES !

oh yeah and this is Amy and I ringing in the new year at what I believe was 10pm out here in the mountain time zone! :) cheers to a good night...

Happy Monday morning!

okay so it is sunday and i'm headed to bed. I could have been in bed and asleep by 6pm tonight. I wish I had been but oh well. At least I got a lot of work done.

I had a pic of my sister up here. Her belly is HUGE. I have never seen a preg. woman that big before in my life. Sure makes me think twice about having babies any time soon. Nah, though she looks great.. She is one of those girls that didn't gain an ounce anywhere else.. However, she looks like she has a therapy ball inside her tummy... eeeekkk.. The boys are both over 5lbs. (5lbs 12oz, 5lbs 6oz) and they are going to start inducing her if she doesn't go soon. My sister is the most amazing person i've met and she is soooo brave. I just love her to death and being considerate i took the pic down but I wish you all could have seen it.

Thats about all i have. I think i'm having an anxiety attack over the amount of work and school work i have this week.. i know-not like me at all.... it is just crazy this week but... get it done with and next week will be much smoother. this weekend was a crazy one cause it was my friend Amy's birthday so....i'm exhausted which doesn't help... we finally got to talk to our friend tom, he didn't ignore us yay! we called my friend katie and sang friends in low places on her voicemail--if that leaves you with a clue of what went down.. hehe We walked all over downtown denver looking for a cab in the frigid cold... but it reminded me of home so it wasn't so bad... we finally picked one up at the westin hotel... blake street to the westin in negative degree weather now thats a hike.. haha


okay must sleep. to all a good night and have a great week. smmooocccchhhh

hard hard hard hard........

i just told the girls today that i'm slimming my time down on the lacrosse field to pretty much nothing... it was hard, really hard. I am going to miss them sooo much. They are a great bunch of girls with a bunch of potential- i just hope that they see that.
I hope that the future proves to be worth it.
and.... it sucks when your not prepared to do it... blah blah blah. We were going to tell them but not until we had sorted out all the details and I had finished writing to all of them... but... unfortunatly, it didn't happen that way.
I expect some of them to be disappointed in me. i know why i made the decision i did and i know it is best for my future because i won't ever be a full time coach but.... it doesn't make it any easier.
blah.tear.sigh.

i'm going to go do my presentation for class.

Losing it slowly...

hiya!

it is saturday and i am procrastinating. i haven't posted in a week--wow
a lot has happened in a week but i will save that for another place and time.

weird stuff is going on with me... about two weeks ago my ears started ringing at night.
i waited a week and it didn't go away. i started taking meds at night (just over the counter
stuff) like my mom said.... it got worse... now two weeks later they ring at night, they wake me up in the middle of the night ringing. i wake up in the morning with my ears ringing... and sometimes throughout the day if it is quiet they continue to ring......... its weird and it is kind of scary... I am going to the doc's on Wed. i feel like i am literally losing it..

okay off to do school work, meet with some recruits, more work... then.... prolly mammoth game tonight ..

???Big Decisions???

so you wonder why on a Saturday night i'm posting....at 10:30pm... well i stayed in to do some school work because i have a ton of papers due next week....psych graduate student--ouch!
lol. however, that isn't why i'm posting.
i have a very difficult decision to make and i'm not sure, actually i know there is no right or wrong answer. problem being is i've pushed myself to the max. not only that i'm not sure if my heart is in it anymore...
this summer something amazing happened. i began working with children with autism and it wasn't until I quit my job in december to pursue school and coaching i realized how much i actually missed it. now, i knew i would miss it but i didn't know i would miss it this much.... and sometimes you just have to follow your heart. last thursday confirmed all of it when i started work again.
so... i can't go to school 15 semester hours, work about 12-13 hours a week doing home programming, work 12 hours a week nannying and another 20 hours a week on top of that coaching... well... it can be done but... i don't know if i want to do it. I have a 4.0 in school right now-nerd i know. I could have done it in undergrad. but didn't. i was very focus on lacrosse and i have made almost all of my life decisions around lacrosse- scary huh? just a little and after... 12 years of lacrosse (9 of playing, 3 coaching) I think it might be time to hang the hat *tear*.. i love our girls and it isn't going to be easy. each and everyone of them are wonderful to work with but...am i doing them a disservice if I can't be there half the time *yeh i think so*
so i'm stuck with a decision i don't want to make and it isn't going to be an easy one. If i stay on, i need to love it and give it a lot of attention and if i leave i need to know i made that decision and move on.... damn this is one of the hardest things i have had to decide. I just wish the girls weren't as great as they are... because then it would make it sooo much easier... but they are a great fun bunch and i will miss them lots.
life sometimes...
now lets talk about the computer. it continues to freeze when the internet is on.. i bought my laptop last october (it is a dell) i had it reformated this past august... blah i have to take it in again.
so i must go now. i need to get up in the morning and finish my paper on ESL students and Assessment testing *any takers?* I have a million things to do tomorrow. eeekkkkk!
so i guess i will leave you with *** GO STEALERS***
"...and to all a good night"

keys to my heart! hoothoot

i did this for shits and giggles and it was kind of right on! hmmm...
i'm tired.. i'm sure the library will wake me up--nerd i know. I'll be in the lib for about 2 1/2 hours until class for 3 hours then dinner.. ummm dinner! then prolly a few drinks with the buds then...to bed to sleep sleep sleep sleep!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

HAPPY FEBRUARY YA'LL.

i am in such a great mood today! I just had to post about it. I'm addicted to this thing that is for sure! don't think i've been addicted to anything except exercising before!

Anywho- i get to go see my old kiddos next tuesday. i will be observing there for a class... i can't wait. i miss them sooo much.

i'm shocked and i mean SHOCKED to say at 24 years old, i truly believe i know what i want to do with my life. is that crazy or what? anyway, they put a big old smile on my face and that is all that counts!

i hope feb. is starting with a bang for all of you out there too! Time to finish my paper and off to class. foot still hurts-trying real hard not to do too much but...the sun is shining the weather is beautiful (around 60 degrees) and i can walk again! its just too dang hard to stay put.. ;)

*toooooooddddles*